Breathe

She wanted to become an us
She didn’t wanna be a you and i
And I wasn’t ready for an us
But a you and I wasn’t enough
So I let my heart silence my mind n let the pieces fall where they may
And then you and I became a we
And then we became an us
And now I feel us turning into a you and I
Or maybe a you and me

Wait.
Breathe.
Think.

I wanted to be independent and together
But I couldn’t lose her so I silenced my mind with my heart
And let the heart deal with the consequences
But the heart closes and the mind opens and then

Wait
Stop
Breathe.

The mind wanted to stay independent
The freedom was like a pill
The sweetest drug..
Heroin…no Marijuana…
Something stronger…
No words…Meth?
No I slept
She left...or did she?
No she was here....

Wait
Breathe
Open Your Eyes

I wanted to be independent
She wanted to be co-dependent
I wanted to be you and I
Or maybe you and me
She wanted to be we
Or maybe… us?

Heart attack.
Seizure.
Breathe…
Just…
Breathe.

Maybe I should try to be co-dependent
But then the mind would close and the heart would open
And then…back at square one
She wanted to be an us
Or maybe a we
But me…I wanted a you and I
Or maybe a you and me

Stop.
Wait.
Breathe.

Take a chance on her --the heart
Wait it out and be safe--- the mind
Cant think cuz the words are garbled and I need to deciper
She’s ready
I’m going thru the motions a heart attack is on the horizon

Wait.
Breathe.
Exhale.

Heart rules mind
Mind rules heart
She’s ready for an us
Or maybe a we…
Maybe I need to let go of you and me
And become a we
And then maybe we can become an us
then together we can...

Breathe.
Just.
Breathe.

An Ode To The Past =]

Soo...im saying tho....this may be my last one for the day...mayne...i was hella inspired this morning....it happens to the best of us i suppose... this ones a lil bit more...uhm...nostalgic? ehh its kinda up to you to decide

"I Heard"

I heard our song today…
The one wit the smooth beat
The hard bass
The sweet melody…

I whispered the melody as I walked to class…
You know how I hate that walk…
The beat of my heart following the hard bass
Yet…
Nevermind.

I heard our song today…
And I almost called you
To tell you to listen to it with me
Like we used to…
Remember?

Our lives used to be intertwined
The music from our song the beat to our love
Smooth, sweet, hard.
Haha
I almost…
Never mind.

I heard our song today,
I smiled
My phone rang
Thought it was you

But it wasn’t.
It was my new love…
But our song played today
And I remembered the love I buried away

You heard it too, didn’t you?
In the wind when I whispered the words to you…
She was jealous because I couldn’t concentrate on her
But
Our song was playing…

She tried to get my attention
I almost called her your name
But I caught myself
I couldn’t concentrate on her
You had taken control
You always did though, didn’t you?

I heard our song today,
And I knew I would never be completely over you,
Especially not when our song was playing,
So sweet
Hard
Soft
The perfect mix of contradictions…
Just like us.

But we were the past
She is waiting for me to let you go
I thought I had
Then I heard our song today…

She is holding her hand out to me,
She thinks I’m nervous because of her past
But its mine that frightens me the most
Every time I hear our song playing…
Like today

I heard our song today
And knew that she could never compare to you
She tries and she reminds me sometimes of you
But when I heard our song today…
It’s a secret I’ll never tell

She’s yelling at me to get my attention back on her
Off of you…
You know you’re my kryptonite
Especially when our song plays…

I heard our song today…
And I couldn’t turn it off…
Cuz it reminded me of you

Inspired Kinda Day =]

Im on a roll today...the great part about working in an environment which doesnt do much but have me sit and think about music and love and life and how its all intertwined...lol haha

"Silly Little Girl"

Look at the silly little girl
Playin in the fields so gold
Look at her…silly little thing
One day she’ll grow old

She’ll forget the fancies of childhood
And recount the pains of the older
And stresses of adulthood

Silly little girl…
Her head up in the clouds
Her mind full of dreams
Her heart full of hope…

She’ll learn to put those ideals away
To succumb to the fate we all contend with
To learn how to function in the world in which we live

Silly little girl
Falling in love with a silly little girl
Silly little couple they too shall learn
Life is not seen through rose colored lenses

One day they’ll learn the truth of their encounter
And the forbidden nature of their love
Silly little children…
You too shall learn what we all know to be truth

Silly little ones…
Their heads in the clouds…
Their love so innocent and pure without fault
Silly little ones…
They too shall learn…

When they grow up they shall learn the truth of their endeavors
Of their dreams…
Of their rose colored glasses and the lies that they held…
Silly little children…
You shall learn..
For we all were once
Silly
Little
Children.

Im Pretty Much Inspired =]

okay, i figured that after that long discertation about my view on life and technology, it was time for me to get down to what i do best....write! =]

Soo...here's a little something that i put together...its on a kinda "is wat it is" kinda deal lol


Its called Late Night Phone Calls....enjoy!!! ^_^




Late night phone calls,
Talking of a future together
Of a life we’d promised each other
Seems like a memory of a time long passed…

Late night phone calls,
Talking of how many kids we’d have
Where we’d live
Our life
Intertwined
Forever…

Late night phone calls,
Sleeping together on the phone,
Our long distance love affair
Our late night love affair….

Late night phone calls,
Leading up to those early morning hang-ups,
Sleepless at home cuz your body im yearning for
Due to those long talks of what would happen when we finally….

Late night phone calls,
Sleep deprived moments,
Bittersweet goodbyes,
I love you
I miss you
My late night lover…

Late night phone calls,
Our fantasies with each other spoken aloud
Our laughter because of the antics we anticipate…
Our late night vocal rendezvous

Late night phone calls,
Each a now forgotten memory
Only revisited in dreams of the past
When late at night,
The phone rings…

An Introduction

Okay, this first blog is nothing more than something that i promised my co-worker i would do....

Soo...I go to this University...I work with computers ...but im definitely the furthest thing from a computer geek haha...no lie...but im pretty intelligent, at least thats what they tell me when they have me doing all kinds of work haha....

Im pretty proficient in watever i set my mind to, so imma talk about computers, laptops actually....seriously, i dont kno what i would do without my laptop, i take it everywhere, to class to work (of course) and when im at home, its all about homework, leisure activities ( ie facebook, myspace, blogspot, all that jazz) and then its instant messenger and all these other programs and functions, gotta love the world in which we live...

one day, im not sorry to admit, we shall be overrun with technology to the point where we will not longer be able to properly function without it and will not be able to make it thru a normal workweek without it. Think about it, the obese rate is higher than ever, kids would rather play on their computers than experience life...but i digress...im not really a fuck the world kinda blogger...im much more of a poet, but this was a blog i thought would be a nice opener...

soo yeaa...im pretty much the average person, i love technology, but i would never let it take control over my life...theres only so much you can get from technology...including the arthritis lol but no...life is great im great and technology...the way of the future...thats great too...all in moderation of course...

oh and yea...i SOOO love my laptop ...i loved it so much i named HER Katie (( yay ))