Breathe

She wanted to become an us
She didn’t wanna be a you and i
And I wasn’t ready for an us
But a you and I wasn’t enough
So I let my heart silence my mind n let the pieces fall where they may
And then you and I became a we
And then we became an us
And now I feel us turning into a you and I
Or maybe a you and me

Wait.
Breathe.
Think.

I wanted to be independent and together
But I couldn’t lose her so I silenced my mind with my heart
And let the heart deal with the consequences
But the heart closes and the mind opens and then

Wait
Stop
Breathe.

The mind wanted to stay independent
The freedom was like a pill
The sweetest drug..
Heroin…no Marijuana…
Something stronger…
No words…Meth?
No I slept
She left...or did she?
No she was here....

Wait
Breathe
Open Your Eyes

I wanted to be independent
She wanted to be co-dependent
I wanted to be you and I
Or maybe you and me
She wanted to be we
Or maybe… us?

Heart attack.
Seizure.
Breathe…
Just…
Breathe.

Maybe I should try to be co-dependent
But then the mind would close and the heart would open
And then…back at square one
She wanted to be an us
Or maybe a we
But me…I wanted a you and I
Or maybe a you and me

Stop.
Wait.
Breathe.

Take a chance on her --the heart
Wait it out and be safe--- the mind
Cant think cuz the words are garbled and I need to deciper
She’s ready
I’m going thru the motions a heart attack is on the horizon

Wait.
Breathe.
Exhale.

Heart rules mind
Mind rules heart
She’s ready for an us
Or maybe a we…
Maybe I need to let go of you and me
And become a we
And then maybe we can become an us
then together we can...

Breathe.
Just.
Breathe.